Late post: Weigh-in Day and then some

Okay, I started writing the majority of this on my actual weigh in Tuesday this week, but… Ha. You’ll see. Just been buuuuusy.

Well, I am back from our five day adventure in the Bay Area. I missed home, a lot. I am not particularly excited to be back but life does go on and I’ve got shit to do. Lets get to the weigh in and then, the shenanigans of out of town-ness. It’s gonna be a long one, so hold

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 196.0lbs
Current Weight: 194.9lbs
Weekly +/-:  -1.1lbs
Total Shed: 66.3lbs

I have to admit, I am beyond proud and excited for myself about this loss. It was difficult to try and track everything I was eating because I didn’t have a lot of control over dinners, especially. This was my first “vacation” since I decided to take back my life and my body and I kept on track. This was a huge test and I passed. I feel like I can finally say I’ve made a true lifestyle change for the better!

We stayed at my husband’s friends place up in the San Francisco area last Wednesday and Thursday.  She’s a classy gal, this one. She had a pot roast with vegetables ready for us upon our arrival and since we had packed our own snacks on the way up, I knew I could eat dinner guilt-free and I did. Oh, I did.

She’s got the best dogs, one of them being a Labradoodle (first generation) who really looks like a giant Muppet. Anyway, my husband helped raise those dogs as he watched them constantly for her back in the day when she was traveling for work – she is an attorney. Or was, she’s retiring and moving back to the East Coast, which brings me to Day 2 at her place….

So, since she was going through everything and doesn’t want to ship it all, she was donating a lot of stuff. Having been through major weight loss herself and talking about my current progress, she ran away and brought in all these bags of clothes. Like baaaagggggsss of clothes. So, we played dress-up and you know what? It’s the first time I had fun doing something like that. It helps that all her stuff was really, really nice and that it actually fit my current body. Then – you guys – no joke, she told me I could keep what I wanted because she was donating it to people who were just going to sell it at a flea market anyway.

WHAT? FUCKING COOL. Ahem…..

So, woo! I scored a bunch of cool stuff. I’m not sure how long it will all fit but it sure made me feel so good to have real, actual, girly clothes to choose from now. I even took some stuff that will fit in 10-15lbs from now. Not a lot but ya know. Lots of tops and around four pair “skinny” pants/leggings which actually don’t look awful on me. I also got some sweet jackets and skirts.  I am SO thankful for her generosity and she seemed genuinely excited to pass her clothes along to someone she knows and that was in need for them. I think what may have sealed the deal for her on it, is knowing I already have a small (really, it’s just three of us, haha) clothing swap group I’ve been sending my clothes to as they dont fit and then they send them to each other depending where they’re at. I’m glad we started that. Now I can part with some stuff I was holding onto because I barely had anything else!

…roasted chicken with veggies for dinner at her place night #2. Yuuuum.

Friday we spent at my sisters and we had a belated birthday dinner for my mama. My mom and brothers hadnt seen me since January so, they were a little shocked. My mom kept insisting my face was too skinny, my younger brother hugged me and said, “whoa, there’s a lot less of you to hug, I don’t know how to react!”, ha. My older brother is socially and mostly always charmingly awkward and simply said, “so hey, you lost some weight”.  The response was very positive from my family overall.

Saturday was our first wedding anniversary. We spent it celebrating one of my childhood friends wedding day. I was nervous about this because I knew at least one old high school bully would be there, which he was.

The ceremony was short and sweet just off the beach, the weather was perfect and the couple looked like statuesque Greek gods. Perfect.

The reception started with my friends Aunt stopping dead in her tracks to ask me if I was me and when I laughed and said, “geez, do I really look that different?”, she about lost her mind. She’s known me since I was around 13ish so… She’s always known me bigger. That felt pretty damn good, I gotta say. I got it from a lot of folks, which felt great.

I did, however, get seated at the same table as my former bully. As well as some other awesome folks… Ha. At one point we were outside and he was mentioning what a dick he was to people in high school. So, I’m sure the glass of wine I had helped, I asked him if he remembered being a dick to me and I started laughing. I think it threw him off that I was so direct about it. He said yes and he was trying to get to that but since I had presented it first….
He apologized. Said he has felt bad for years and wanted me to know, if it made me feel better, that remorse has played a huge role in his feelings towards me. It did, and I told him that. We let bygones be bygones and we shook hands and hugged it out. I forgave him and he thanked me for it. That felt really good too. Like, really good.

Sunday a friend of mine drove to my sisters so that our kiddos could meet finally. We have been trying to plan this for nearly two damn years. We didn’t force them to play together but they did play together and separate as well. They were so good with each other it was way too cute. 

Later we headed to my oldest brothers house about an hour southeast of my sisters place. We always have a good time with them. Their son is affected by autism and I’m always so enchanted by him and to see what new skills he has acquired since I last saw him. He communicates so well for not being able to speak much. He really, really loved having his baby/little cousin around and they laughed together and my nephew kept buttering me up so he could play with my son’s toys, haha. It was pretty cool. I was also finally able to hand off a box of clothes each to my niece and my sister-in-law!  it was a shorter night than usual for us, being we left at 12:30am instead of 3am, ha.

Now comes Monday morning, we had planned to leave around 930-10-30 to get back home around 3ish. I probably should have mentioned that our 12 year-old Jeep started making a ticking or fluttering noise on the way up. Upon an oil change, we were told they were dirty lifters, were lubed/clean and we were told the sound would stop in time.

Well, about halfway into our drive home… The sound gets worse and our toddler is just not wanting to sit in the car anymore. My husband and I note the noise and both silently pray and send good vibes out to at least get us home. Let me tell you, whatever we both wished or prayed to/for worked.

After a near six hour drive as we were in the exit only lane of the freeway  – our last exit before home – the motor starts sputtering, the car will no longer accelerate. As we were on the off-ramp, it just stopped running and the engine started smoking. We were able to safely get the car into a parking lot just off the exit before it came to a complete halt. We were 2.1 miles from home. So, that happened. Haha.  After a call to AAA to get it towed home, hubs took a breather with the boy and they walked.home while I waited for the tow. The driver said what I had already thought: probably a blown head gasket since it was leaking oil and coolant together. Argh.

To add insult to injury, a week prior we had just purchased new tires. I had also agreed to pick up my brother from the airport this week on Tuesday night and take him to a court date Weds and back to the airport Weds night. So, we spent the night scrambling to unpack the car and come up with a game plan. Luckily, AAA offers (for Premier membership) a free rental with tow and since we had to get the car to the shop anyway, that’s what we ended up doing late Tuesday afternoon. So we got one free day and a standard size car at $30/day through AAA. Not too bad.

So, I held up my end of the bargain with my brother. I picked him up from the airport about 10pm Tuesday night, was up at 5:15am on Weds morning to make sure he was up and that we had enough time to make it to the courthouse by 7:30am…. Which we didn’t because the LA/OC area is ridiculous. 27mi took almost two hours. His case wasn’t heard until around 10am, we had lunch and dropped someone off – back to the house by 1:30pm to relieve husband from screaming child and so my bro could take a nap and at 4pm we were back on the road for his flight home.

So, yeah. Today I spent the first part of the day running errands to the store and things like that before we take the rental back tomorrow afternoon. I’m pretty sure it’s not going to be worth what it will cost to fix the Jeep and we arent in a position to buy a car yet either so!  Looks like a lot of walking in my future, eh?

Silver linings:
1. jeep took us on one last family adventure. It was our last trip in what ended up being our first family car!
2. No accidents, no one was hurt
3. Hubs and I both still lost weight on vacation
4. It makes a great story!

If you’re still here…. Thanks! Ha.

Looking forward to catching up with everyone!

Tuesday Latepost: Weigh in day

Well, since I’m uber late with this already (totally legit though), I will jump right into it!

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 196.9lbs
Current Weight: 196.0lbs
Weekly +/-:  -0.9lbs
Total Shed: 65.2lbs

Okay so not a huge loss, but almost a pound. Not bad for the time we don’t speak of. Haha. Just kidding. I had my period last week.

I’ve been gearing up for a trip with my husband and son for the last week or so. That probably sounds like a lot of preparation for a fancy trip, but we’re just driving further North up the state to our home town to visit with everyone. I haven’t been there since January. My poor Mom hasn’t seen my son since January (he barely had hair then, now it’s a crazy, curly zoo). That’s okay, Mom got a titanium hip in August and I’ve not yet seen that thing in action. She looks visibly better and pain free in pictures now.

Got off topic kinda…. Anyway. So, for the next five days man. It’s going to be rough. It’s my first more-than-24-hours trip away since I began changing my life in February. I will be seeing many people who last saw me at 260+ pounds. Its gonna be intense, but I’m also afraid no one is going to notice, which is just…. Silly. I’m nervous about it but I’m sure it will be okay.

I’m equally concerned about smart food choices, although I’ve packed food for the hubs and I and prepped for my very loud, refusing to talk, toddler. It’s my Mom’s birthday dinner on Friday night and the following celebration of our first wedding anniversary and attending a friends wedding I’m a litttttle worried about. I know my stomach though and I know what will make it unhappy so I really need to keep those kinda things in mind when my naughty side wants the cookies. All of them.

It’s probably a bad time to write. It’s nearly 1am, my boy should be up between 6-7am and I’m hungry. Not in a bored way, just in a did a shit-ton of stuff all day and didn’t realize I wasn’t eating all day. Not all day. I had breakfast for lunch and dinner for dessert time…. And dessert was really midnight snack time. And well, guys, that was some delicious raspberry chocolate Greek yogurt.

I should stop now. Ha. I will be distracted but still checking in with everyone!

Make smart choices and find your smile today. 🙂

Weigh-in Tuesday

Good Morning!

Wanted to get this post in early since I’ve been tardy and very long-winded the last few. Let’s get to it:

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 198.6lbs
Current Weight: 196.9lbs
Weekly Loss: 1.7lbs
Total Shed: 64.3lbs

So, another healthy loss this week! For those of you who read my pregnancy paranoia post… I weighed in today on the red devil anyway, so I mean. Coast is clear, obviously. Gotta work on not worrying, in general, so much.

Anyway, much to do, very little time, hubby has an injury so I am on double duty today!

Make it a good week, find your smile!

Ladies, please….

I am having a problem.

My problem is paranoia.

My paranoia is about getting pregnant when I’m in the middle of this journey. I am not ready for another kid, quite yet.

You see, I got pregnant on birth control (the pill) with my son. I also know I was not super diligent about timing and around said time, I know I had some “make up days”. Urgh.

After I had my son I tried depo and it helped shoot me from 238 (which was my 6 week post partum weight, my pre pregnancy weight had been 235) into the 260s in a matter of six months and told my Doctor no , just no. He recommends the IUD at the time but they were out of them, so I got on the pill, again.

Now, though, I take it at the same time every, single, day. I even account for daylight savings time and all that. However, as far and few between as intimate times are with the hubs (mostly living situation circumstances), I cannot help but be paranoid that I’ve gotten pregnant until my period starts every time we do.

So, obviously this is plauging me now. I spotted kind of some days after the last time, which made me nervous. I also know my period has not been what I thought it was all these years as I’ve dropped pounds and inches. In fact, it’s basically a little different every month now since about May. My red devil is supposed to show up next week but I can’t shake the anxiety about this until it starts. Or doesnt, I guess.

So I guess my question is, am I the only one? Is it normal to get freaked out like this? My son is almost two, its not like he was JUST born. But its gotten to the point where even though I want to do it, I equally don’t out of fear. I’ve talked about it with my husband and he seemed to get the words I was saying, but not the feeling.

I guess, I feel a little selfish for wanting to continue to work on my health and my weight loss before we have another kid. This stupid game I play with myself is just that… Stupid. I don’t know how to stop the cycle though and I don’t want it to have a negative impact on my marriage. I don’t feel like my paranoia and anxiety are fair to either of us.

I am aware I could still choose the IUD and I even had an appointment in August – that I ended up canceling. One, it didn’t seem right to use a five year device for a year or less (family planning talks and all, my husband is much older than I am). Two, I’m no longer cool with the idea of putting and leaving a foreign object in my lady business. Uhhhh.

This post has been TMI. I apologize, but I need to put my crazy somewhere…. Ha.

Late: ONEderland Weigh-In!

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So, I’ve obviously gone ahead and give away that I am out of the 200s! First time in roughly 15-16 years!  Even took a picture (above) to capture the realness. Ha.

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 200.4lbs
Current Weight: 198.6lbs
Weekly Loss: 1.8lbs
Total Loss: 62.6lbs

So dang everyone, first major milestone goal accomplished! It took me literally all day yesterday to come terms with the reality of all my hard work since February. WE ARE ALL SO CAPABLE. It is not easy, it takes brain power, will power, emotional power and meltdowns. It takes WORK.

I took my monthly measurements yesterday as well, which I was really anticipating since I completed that Plank Challenge in September, which made me sore for the entire month.

Current measurements:
Neck – 13″ ( – 0.25″)
Upper Arms – 14″ ea ( – 1.75″ between both)
Chest – 42.5″ ( – 0.5″)
Under Bust (added in Aug) – 36″ ( – 0.5″)
Waist (narrowest) – 34″ ( – 2″)
Hips (widest) – 44.5″ ( -2″)
Thighs – LT 27.5″,  RT 28.5″ ( – 1.75″ between both)
Calves – 17.875″ ea ( – 0.25″ between both)

So, that’s a total of 10.5″ down in a month! I thank thee, plank challenge.

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Total Inches Trimmed! 55" since February, and that's just what I DID measure!

I was going to take progress pictures but I doubt they would differ from last week by very much. Probably again once I am at 70lbs down or feeling particularly good one day, haha.

I had intended to post yesterday after i weighed in and measured. Then I wanted to make sure I got a workout in before I did, as not to celebrate too much and jinx my progress. Jinx. Oops, poke! You owe me a coke!

I mean….

I worked out too hard though, or maybe just hard enough. I got back to my Body Weight Circuits and I am totally feeling the effects of not having done squats and lunges in like a month. Feeeeeel the burn. Ha.

I expect the end of this month to be challenging. We go out of town for about five days for the first time since this whole thing started. Attending a wedding, celebrating our own anniversary, out looking at homes, etc. I’m trying to get in the right mindset now but it just makes me sleepy thinking about it.

Lots of other things going on to save for another post as they are all very unrelated to weight loss. 🙂

Weigh-in Tuesday (Wednesday?)

Sorry for the super-late-in-the-day weigh in slash everything post. It’s probably going to be lengthy and include lots of pictures because I am a long-winded individual…. It is what it is.

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 202.8lbs
Current Weight: 200.4lbs
Weekly Loss: 2.4lbs
Total Loss: 60.8lbs

September Total: 10.6lbs gone!

I was very pleased with my weigh-in this morning, especially after last week’s wonky weigh-in. (Which ultimately I took as a +0.2lb gain from the week before). September gave me over 10lbs gone; not bad considering I had three teeth extracted half way through the month. I have a couple weeks left to hit my personal/milestone goal of departing the 200s and saying hello to the 100s. So far, I am on track. Sweet.

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Well, it was Tuesday when I started this, ha. Hello wee hours of Wednesday!

Anyway, fitness stuff. I completed my Two Week Plank Challenge, except it took me 20 days instead of 14. That’s okay, had some teeth pulled in that time and gave myself extra rest days as my body saw fit. I finished it though. A total of five minutes of plank in one session. My shoulders and back have been thoroughly worked. Other areas, too, just noticeably in these particular areas. So glad it’s over and so proud I was able to convince myself I could do it and then follow-through!

I’ve been having a lot of dreams lately that I am running but it’s not so difficult and I’m either enjoying myself or challenging myself in the dream. Not super sure what that means (lots of other weird, funky dreams involving running but much different). So, I got a new pair of shoes (above). I didn’t set out to get them, though. Maybe that was the point. I was at Target and on a whim decided to look through the shoes. These Sport by Sketchers were in the clearance section, at half off, in my size in pretty colors and they were the only pair there. I mean, so, I had to. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me. I also found Skull Candy headphones for half off (in green). I was skeptical of them but as the packaging says, “unruly bass”, indeed. Not bad for simple headphones normally only $10. Just saying.

Food, eh? Nothing exciting. My food budget is nil for another week or so. I hate the end of the food budget, gets harder to make smarter choices as they dwindle! 

I did try a Spaghetti Squash Lasangna in the middle of the week last week. It came out pretty delicious, I must say. I am not typically a squash person (since I am a huge texture based eater) and I’d never had spaghetti squash before. I had to beat thru a couple of mental barriers but there was absolutely nothing wrong with the taste. I even made the simple Marinara sauce the gal provided on her blog – it’s tastey and easy and I wanted to stay within the nutrition information listed.

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Spaghetti Squash Lasagna

I shared, on Facebook, a photo of myself today and announced that I was 60lbs down, 105lbs combined the hubs. Here:

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Hey, muscles!

I got a lot of positive feedback and encouragement, which was really, really great. When I initially shared with friends and family what I was doing, I got a lot of “pics or it didn’t happen” type of attitude, which I thought was kind of crappy. It was not like that this time.

It got me thinking though, about total body weight lost. If you consider at one point I used to weigh 298lbs (my known highest), then I’ve lost 98lbs – 33% of my body weight at its highest. HOLY SHIT.

STILL, my numbers for when this journey started in February at 261.2lbs are impressive as well. 60.8lbs – 23% of my body weight gone since February. I repeat: HOLY SHIT.

So, thinking about it that way, I figured instead of waiting until I was under 200lbs to do new progress photos, I should bid my 200s a proper adieu.

My last progress pics in the 200s:

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Ahh, you know, I really need to see these reminders once in awhile. I’m glad I ended up doing progress photos.

Measurements next week.. we shall see what that plank challenge did as far as trimming me down.

Lots of life stuff, too sleepy. Next time. 🙂