The veterinarian hospital we took our beloved Maxwell to when he passed has just called to inform me that his ashes are back and ready for pick-up.

I suppose, then, it’s no surprise that roughly 30 minutes before that I had a pretty random cry-fest in his memory. It’s weird to be excited about something a little morbid but alas, I am. Some friends and family keep asking me what I’m going to do with them. Well, I’m going to have a barbecue of course! I feel like it’s a silly question. I’m going to keep them, at least for now. Max wasn’t a dog, he didn’t have a favorite spot that wasn’t on my bed or my lap or with his claws stuck in my hair. If anything, he did like climbing up trees. I am entertaining the thought of turning him into a Japanese Maple tree via Bio Urn when we move and eventually have property.

I’m ready, I think. I wasn’t really expecting them to be ready until Friday or Monday. They even asked how I wanted his name positioned on the box. Maxwell Silverhammer. Kitty-pants, ahhh… and naturally, my toddler is fighting nap-time for two hours now. I’ve conceded he will be skipping the nap, hubbo still trying. It’s not going to end pretty.

I’m not ready to really be out in public though. There can be physical consequences and manifestations as a result of so much ugly-crying. Such being the constellation of pimples that has arrived on my face or the small planet of fever blisters under my nose this time (on the opposite side of last time) that are in an ugly, scabbing healing phase. My husband keeps suggesting outdoorsy, people infested activities and… he’s probably right, but my face, man.

Other projects moving along nicely, I feel like I’ve been pretty productive this week and it’s been personally insightful and reflective. I am impatient about one of two things I am working on that I am most excited about, but I can’t do that until after the first. At some point I should have a bombardment of awesome stuff in the mail coming my way which will (well, some) go out to other people. I just want to organize everything. I want to organize your stuff to. I don’t want to steal it, I just want it to look CLEAN as fuuuuu.

I really do enjoy organizing stuff. I’m not sure why. It’s amplified when I am sad but I’m generally down.

I need a change of scenery, I need to get back into the workouts that helped me be successful when I started. I need to commit to body weight circuits again and figure out what I want to do for cardio. I need to find new recipes so my “old” recipes don’t become old. I need to expand my pallet. All things to work on. I have so many different to-do lists it’s a little nuts, but they make sense to me and they don’t overwhelm.

Speaking of, I need to stop this and get back to those. Although, trying to post more than once a week is technically on my list, so…


Weigh-in Tuesday (Wednesday?)

Sorry for the super-late-in-the-day weigh in slash everything post. It’s probably going to be lengthy and include lots of pictures because I am a long-winded individual…. It is what it is.

Starting Weight Feb 2014: 261.2lbs 
Weight Last Week: 202.8lbs
Current Weight: 200.4lbs
Weekly Loss: 2.4lbs
Total Loss: 60.8lbs

September Total: 10.6lbs gone!

I was very pleased with my weigh-in this morning, especially after last week’s wonky weigh-in. (Which ultimately I took as a +0.2lb gain from the week before). September gave me over 10lbs gone; not bad considering I had three teeth extracted half way through the month. I have a couple weeks left to hit my personal/milestone goal of departing the 200s and saying hello to the 100s. So far, I am on track. Sweet.


Well, it was Tuesday when I started this, ha. Hello wee hours of Wednesday!

Anyway, fitness stuff. I completed my Two Week Plank Challenge, except it took me 20 days instead of 14. That’s okay, had some teeth pulled in that time and gave myself extra rest days as my body saw fit. I finished it though. A total of five minutes of plank in one session. My shoulders and back have been thoroughly worked. Other areas, too, just noticeably in these particular areas. So glad it’s over and so proud I was able to convince myself I could do it and then follow-through!

I’ve been having a lot of dreams lately that I am running but it’s not so difficult and I’m either enjoying myself or challenging myself in the dream. Not super sure what that means (lots of other weird, funky dreams involving running but much different). So, I got a new pair of shoes (above). I didn’t set out to get them, though. Maybe that was the point. I was at Target and on a whim decided to look through the shoes. These Sport by Sketchers were in the clearance section, at half off, in my size in pretty colors and they were the only pair there. I mean, so, I had to. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me. I also found Skull Candy headphones for half off (in green). I was skeptical of them but as the packaging says, “unruly bass”, indeed. Not bad for simple headphones normally only $10. Just saying.

Food, eh? Nothing exciting. My food budget is nil for another week or so. I hate the end of the food budget, gets harder to make smarter choices as they dwindle! 

I did try a Spaghetti Squash Lasangna in the middle of the week last week. It came out pretty delicious, I must say. I am not typically a squash person (since I am a huge texture based eater) and I’d never had spaghetti squash before. I had to beat thru a couple of mental barriers but there was absolutely nothing wrong with the taste. I even made the simple Marinara sauce the gal provided on her blog – it’s tastey and easy and I wanted to stay within the nutrition information listed.


Spaghetti Squash Lasagna

I shared, on Facebook, a photo of myself today and announced that I was 60lbs down, 105lbs combined the hubs. Here:


Hey, muscles!

I got a lot of positive feedback and encouragement, which was really, really great. When I initially shared with friends and family what I was doing, I got a lot of “pics or it didn’t happen” type of attitude, which I thought was kind of crappy. It was not like that this time.

It got me thinking though, about total body weight lost. If you consider at one point I used to weigh 298lbs (my known highest), then I’ve lost 98lbs – 33% of my body weight at its highest. HOLY SHIT.

STILL, my numbers for when this journey started in February at 261.2lbs are impressive as well. 60.8lbs – 23% of my body weight gone since February. I repeat: HOLY SHIT.

So, thinking about it that way, I figured instead of waiting until I was under 200lbs to do new progress photos, I should bid my 200s a proper adieu.

My last progress pics in the 200s:




Ahh, you know, I really need to see these reminders once in awhile. I’m glad I ended up doing progress photos.

Measurements next week.. we shall see what that plank challenge did as far as trimming me down.

Lots of life stuff, too sleepy. Next time. 🙂

Taters and MtFitnessPal

So, I’ve been lured into MyFitnessPal. It’s not easy work tracking every little thing you eat, you know? I find it it irritating and a little scary even though I have got most of my food related cravings and urges under control. I keep finishing well under my goal of 2110 a day, which is already a “deficit” of 3k something based on my height, weight and age. I am still having problems not eating enough and I am still eating mostly at night/dinner time. I almost always skip breakfast. Damnit. I do not have a problem with my h2o intake. I do like being able to track my physical activity though since it can give you an approx # of calories burned. I can see why it would be beneficial to have friends on there for motivation. I plan to keep using it for awhile to aid in dropping the aforementioned bad habits. Drop me your email if you want to pair up on MFP! 

Speaking of food, I made a lemony roasted potato salad this evening and it isn’t even bad for ya! I yanked the recipe from here: BevCooks. It is basically fingerling potatoes, plain Greek yogurt, lemon juice, olive oil, celery and mint. It’s served warm and its just…. Heavenly. Seriously, look:


Lemony Roasted Potato Salad

If lemons and taters are your thing, please do yourself a huge favor and make this (personally, I cut the recipe in half because I can’t leave leftovers, there would be none). No joke. This is my second time making it! I love potatoes and if it were up to me I would eat them every day. Alas, now we have about a once-a-week date but it’s such a GOOD time.

My workouts were all completed this week, of course besides tomorrow’s ride, which I do intend to complete. I felt like I needed a challenge somewhere, so when I am doing my bicycle intervals this week, I decided to up the resistance level from 5 to 6 for those 30 secs “all out”, then back to 5, repeat. Dude. DUDE. What a painful difference it has made all week. A good pain, a pain that reeks of hard work. My circuits were back to normal this week even though my leg feels a little wonky still, I was able to complete everything. Kicking my own ass is where it’s at.

I turn 30 a week from tomorrow and on Thursday I will see my doctor for a general follow-up – my last one in my 20s!  I’ve already started a list of stuff I would like to go through with her… Including talking about my ultimate goal weight and what would be healthy for me and my body. I am actually excited about this appointment. She didn’t really look like she believed me back in early March when I told her what I was up to, altering my lifestyle. Though we did discuss it and my workout routine (which she approved of, especially the bike since its easy on the joints). It will be nice to read over 20lbs less on their scale so she can see I wasn’t blowing smoke up her ass. I feel like I have to mentally prepare for THEIR weigh-in because it’s always a little more than my home scale, which had put me at just over 25lbs gone. Perhaps it’s the clothing difference, I don’t know. We shall see! More on that after it happens.

I hope everyone has an excellent weekend. Remember to laugh, especially at yourself. 🙂